Hats-off

I am always fascinated by the success of human spirit and effort!

Hats-off to A R Rahman and Rasool Pookutty for their winning Oscar awards.

I salute Hollywood for their open mind, true to the American spirit that has always stood for, and accepted, what is good from world over. I respect that American spirit, and I believe that to be instrumental to the success that America has seen in the past.

Going forward, I hope that openness prevails in the long run, despite the temporary gloom set by the economic recession. I believe there is a lot that a country and civilisation that gave the world the word that precedes silence and is followed by more silence would contribute towards world at large

Learning to live, the hard way

I thought there would be respite to hard life but the life is telling me otherwise ... It seems for now that the turmoil on my personal front is far from over.

I have tried to live my life by certain ideals. My ideals being love, compassion, caring and sharing.

I believe in those ideals because I believe man is a social being and because I believe that social fabric is weaved together with love, compassion, caring and sharing

I have shared knowledge and experience liberally all along, as that has been my primary asset. My other assets being reputation and trust that have come my way, all along... I lived so, because I was taught to live so, because I believed that is the right thing to do

Now, mid-life, I am standing at crossroads questioning the fundamentals. I question the fundamentals because life is giving me hard lessons. Was I wrong? Was I taught wrong?

It is said, what you give, comes back. I have not given because I wanted something in return. But, there seems to be strings attached to everything that is coming my way

I am at crossroads because I am forced to suspect whether what I believed as right, is truly right, whether what I believed as mine, is truly mine.

Probably, I am failing to see the design of god telling me that nothing here belongs to me. Even I myself do not belong here; nor it belongs to me

May be, it is a drama being played out, rather an emotional one. Probably, god is preparing me for a worse tomorrow. I do not know.

What I know is that it hurts.. I cannot hold back my tears

Question before me is not what and how; it is rather what for?

I need to, because I am alive? because I believe in it? because I am passionate about it?

I think so. It does not matter whether I am right or wrong. It does not matter whether I win or loose.

I stand for common good. I do for common good. I do because I believe in it.

When I stand before the mirror, look at myself in the eyes, I do not want deceit, self-interest, hatred or grudge.

I may laugh or I may cry; does not matter. I shall do both for the sake of love, compassion, caring and sharing. I shall continue to stand for a fellow being, for human spirit and progressive human society. Therefore, I stand where I am, the way I am. I cannot change, because I am what I am.

Coatings of paint may change, brightened by the sunshine or weathered by the harsh winds. But I shall stay where I am, the way I am, so long as I am around here